when was the last time you’ve felt really down and that your life seems like its a never ending black hole and you cant see a way out?
this is one of those times… and it always hits you at the oddest of hours and at the most inconvenient of times..
it just feels as though every thread in your body is being tore open and all your guts are spilt for public humiliation and there is nothing you can do but to try to go through day by day as though everything is normal and fine..
it is times like these that i find it hard to focus on the fact that i should be grateful for everything that’s happened to me so far because nothing can compare to the millions of people suffering in the world and that i am actually so much more blessed then they are regardless of which angle i choose to view my life through..
it is hard… but life goes on, no?
we muddle through life looking for a second of glimmering sparkles to remind us that life aint as hard as we think it is..
i of all people should know better…
the past few days has been wonderful and heart-warming being able to spend some time with the kids..
i’ve gotten a chance to travel and i’ve got good friends and a relatively well off life as compared to the kids who’ve got nobody but themselves and rarely anyone showing them the love and support that they so desperately need.
at the end of the day, after all this and all that, our life is what we make of it
so its back to the ‘decision’ board
at least i’ve got the kids..
