there are so many things to do, so many decisions to make, so many responsibilities.

its damn tiring.

and it annoys me even more when ppl keep asking and reminding me that they are there whenever i need to talk.

i know u all mean well, but if u know me well enough, u’d know that i ALREADY know that u’re there.
thank u for your kindness and some bits of curiosity into my mind and life.
but i do not really like talking bout what i’m thinking about or whats bugging me.
if u know me well enough, u’ll know that i can sort things out myself and i prefer doing things my way.
and if u know me well enough, u’d know that i like some time alone or off.
if u know me well enough, u’d know that if i want to talk, if i’ve got things to say, i would have said it already.
the more u ask would make me shut up even more.
if u know me well enough u’d know that i think like a guy.
meaning i do not talk much bout whats bugging me and i like to channel surf.

the thing a lot of ppl do not understand is that when i say NO i mean NO.
when i say YES i mean YES.
when i say i DO NOT know i really DO NOT know.
when i say i need alone time, i mean I NEED ALONE TIME.
when i say DONT ask me i mean DO NOT even attempt at it.
(no prying, no twisting words to find out, no fishing for info)

is it THAT HARD to understand a?

i know u mean well la, but wtf wei
i’m not the kind to want to talk bout things all the time.
when i need help, i will ask for it.
thank god may and lallu all knows.

sometimes when i do not keep in touch, it really doesnt mean that i’ve forgotten u.
its either i forget to call or text cos i’m caught up with things, or its cos i just need some time off la.
as for pat, joce, pam, adam just to name a few, and all my other older friends, me not keeping in touch and not updating doesnt mean i dont think of u guys.
its just that at the end of the day, when everything else is said and done, it’ll be bit too late to text or call.
and thank goodness for facebooks and blogs where i get to update myself on whats going on, roughly, in your lives.

that aside, please learn to understand this one thing about me.
when i say DO NOT ASK,
DO NOT ASK!!

disclaimer: the frustration only applies right now. but i still mean it when i’ve already indicated that i do not like to be asked.