i’m watching it at home
was suppose to go watch it live with bhavesh
but initially i had percussion practice, which was canceled last min.
so i’m stuck at home and watching it on tv.

and the first thing that crossed my mind when the whole thing started was, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THEIR MAKE UP ARTIST AND FASHION SENSE?!?!?!?!?!
oh and also, why the HELL did u guys have to butcher ‘itu kamu’?! aiyo yo….. (kesian estranged.. andy, jangan marah~)
i mean, seriously, i’ve got nothing mean to comment about the two finalists’ voices cos i think they have the talent.
only thing that is lacking is probably more practice and more experience.

and now as i am blogging, i’m listening to Ayu sing
she’s got a strong, pwerful voice and i think she’s good, albeit some screaming
and maybe some technical problems here and there (cant blame me, i am classically trained. we pick up all the small details)
but she’s still a pretty good singer!

and as for Shila, she’s got the innocent softer version of Christina Aguilera’s voice
her lower notes she’s gotta be careful of
but her control in her high notes are amazingly good for a malaysian!
i love her voice.
sweet and straight forward

the only thing i’m really not satisfied about is their make up!
and the clothes!
i mean, COME ON!
not to say i had the best make up on tv last time but at least i’ve learnt from it and started applying the make up on myself!
and not to say i’ve got the best dress sense but OMG! i’ll NEVER be caught dead in anything that they’ve worn so far!
jeez, come on la!

the irony of this is that i was watching american idol right before one in a million
and of course the westerners have their power-house voices
but they too have their pitching problems
at least their dresseing sense, on an average, is a far cry better compared to the ones in OIAM!
damn… shy only wei….

and these few weeks watching all these great singers singing,
i am rekindled with the over-powering regret that i own a thin chinese voice
i absolutely LOVE to sing
and i can hold my tune and pitch
its just that i do not have the actual voice to compliment the tune
which is pretty sad for me

but i’ve got to give it to them
they have the courage to stand up there on that stage ALONE and belt out the songs that they are to sing!
i can never!
even with the dhol, even with the piano, i can never find the courage to do that alone
at least speaking aint that hard
but to parade your talent to the world, damn~
my hats off to them

UPDATE:
and the winner is AYU!
congrats girl!
u deserve it!

borders rocks my socks.. keke
i love books..
i’d wanna have my own huge-ass library one day
with all them shelves and books
it’ll be my prized possession

than i met up with eddy
was good to catch up with him again..
he just came back from indon
he went there over the weekend for work.
had dinner at the apartment..
kinda forgot to take pictures there..
still trying to get used to the idea of my own camera
the food there was pretty good!
but where we were seated was a little too noisy
never liked noise..

after that i went over to bangsar’s starbucks cos alvin, freddy and jolene was there
and guess who i bumped into?

charmayne! the pretty and outgoing young lady

was only there for a while thou
cos alvin got hungry
so we went to PJ Hills
and the blur me, now knows where pj hills is.. hehehe
alvin keeps telling me he’s at pj hills pj hills pj hills..
but i kept telling him that i’ve got no idea where it is at
tapi bila sampai, i realised that its the one that rosli brings me to for quiet mamak hahaha
blur kan? blur……

zalila lee and reza came and joined the supper session
and as usual, alvin had us all in stitches!
he was cracking jokes left, right and centre
and not only that, zal jumped in as well so we were laughing at alvin’s lame-ness as well!
mwaahahahahahahaha…
and yes, alvin, DO A WORKSHOP!!!!!
i’m still giggling over some of his jokes now
lobster says “ariel?”
hahahahahaha…
okok.. sorry, private joke

alvin after one of his many jokes

reza and zal laughing away

gosh after that laughing session, susah nak tidur wei…

and i’m still getting used to my hair

i did something really spontaneous recently
something very spontaneous

and the reason why i did it was because i was beginning to get bored and frustrated of routine and the ‘big bottomless pit’
so while i was walking around pavilion, i decided to pop into Andy Ho, haute coiffure
and guess what i got myself?

…

this!

short kan?

at first i thought it was gonna be all cutesie mutesie..
but i guess i can punk it up as well

(actually, it just looks as thou i have my hair all tied up haha)

hopefully this cut will bring back a bit of my spunk
or whatever it was that i use to have..

funny thing is, when she cut all my long hair off in one go, i didnt even feel the ’pain’..
after almost ten years of having to deal with my long flat hair,
this new short bob was kinda refreshing!
the only worry that i have is that because my hair is wavy, when it starts to grow out, it’ll start pointing in ALL directions!
oh and according to nicky, i look like a have a bigger head now.. sigh~

anyhow, still happy with it..
its still new so all the ’bad hair days’ have not hit me yet
*touch wood* *touch wood* *touch wood*

so if u see me, dont just walk past me
(like some of my friends… AM I THAT UNRECOGNISABLE?!?!?!)
i might look a tad different
hehe..
ok, i think different is an understatement
kekeke

ooooooooooo weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
dooooppiiiiidooooo dummm dummmm deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

wanted to watch the oscars this morning
but i slept so darn late due to a certain chicken backside bugging me the whole entire night..

so since yan didnt watch it this morning either, we decided to catch the rerun at her place
and since both of us didnt have dinner, she decided to cook
yan! cooking!
hahaha..
its definitely a first for me!
thats a side of yan i dont know
even if its only pasta..
she was so gungho bout it that she went grocery shopping!
got the linguini, mushrooms, beef and even bread for garlic toast!
but she forgot one thing thou..
THE PASTE! mwahahahahahahaha

here she is looking for it everywhere..

i liked the way she mixed in shit loads of beef into the paste..
makes the pasta way more filling!

this is her clean kitchen stove
tee hee

this is her, looking tired with puffy eyes..
she felt really remorseful for chopping ’em onions it tore her up with guilt

after all that, we sat down and enjoyed the oscars..

wont it be nice to one day BE ON THAT STAGE?
the kodak theatre?
the red carpets?
a nomination?
an award?
or even presenting an award would be enough!
wait wait.. what am i talking about?!
performing on that stage man!
wah~!!

yes yes.. daydreams…
SOME do come true u know :)

rosli rosli, u’re officially 37!
mwahahahahaha…
okok i know i’m not suppose to be shouting your age everywhere..
and yes u’ll say that u’re still younger than me..
but whatever… hahaha

happy birthday u kind soul
everyone loves u anyways
and i do too!
mwah!!

and go look for this song..

Elegy for Dunkirk – Dario Marianelli

its super awesome man!
its from Atonement’s OST
and frankly speaking, the whole album is DARN GOOD!
everything’s by Marianelli..

go go go!
what are u waiting for?!

its very unflattering laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa…..

this is not too bad…
well, at least in my opinion its not as bad as being ‘on crack’!
dont even get me started…
thats coming soon…

and yes, i can be very straight forward and it may borderline on ’mean’
but hey, its a form of awareness as well
i genuinely want u guys to look good!
so please dont get me wrong.
cos i have made such mistakes too in the past.. and unknowingly i might still be doing it

here’s my mistake caught on camera.

visible turquoise thong..
i was extremely stupid once..
now i’m just plain stupid..
hahahahaha

u know why?
its because i just got a mail from faiz!
its FAIZ!
i’ve not had much or any contact with him for so many months!
it was due to my mistakes as well la
and i have regreted my flaw of being indecisive
cos it has caused ruffled feathers
and it hit me more cos it cost me one of my most treasured friend!
hence the distance and the no-contact

so no prize for guessing why the hell i’m so fucking happy!
i’ve genuinely missed him man!
i have so many good memories with him
he is definitely one friend u’ll never want to lose
but due to my childish indecisions and my need to want to please everyone, i faltered
sigh~
not to say i’m any more mature now thou
i’m still in the process of growing up
it aint easy to have to make decisions but i guess its one of them things that we are required to do parallel to growing up.

whatever it is, i’m really happy :)

i was sceptical about this movie at first.
the ‘cover art’ looked so, amature
but once the movie started, my scepticism began to fade.
i found that i was actually enjoying the movie!
and i think what was most captivating was the fact that the lines were brilliant!
the things that juno says, the things that she blurts are instantaneous and spunky
i remember sitting there thinking that i’ll never even begin to think of these sort of come-back lines
so meaning the script writer had to have a wild imagination.

a lot of people may dislike these sort of movies cos it can be a little ditzy and kiddish
but if u’re not looking for something that is serious, this would be a good one to watch
it guarantees laughter
and of course it shows how, sometimes, the decisions we make bears consequences that are visible to the world
and the responsibility of such consequences can be taken up quite simply.
it also shows how, in a teenager’s life, experiences are experiences.
once in the past, its in the past.
then they move on to other things life has to offer

good one.
do catch it.

i’ve always wanted to watch this movie in the cinema
but no one wanted to so i finally went and got the dvd.
heard so much about it.
a love story spanning throughout the years and the course of a few people’s lives that changed based on an assumption of a little girl driven by jealousy and naivety.

i must say, atonement is a beautiful movie.
such a beautiful story.
and the saddest of which was in the last ten minutes when the older briony was talking about her ’confession’.
what a life to live.
to survive and to live thru the regret and the guilt of knowing that u single handedly ruined two lives that was to be whole and beautiful.

its a gorgeous classic of a love story.
adding on to that would be the soundtrack.
i think it was a brilliant idea to include the sounds of the type writer in briony’s theme.
but my personal favorite would be the sad guilt ridden theme of the last ten mins.
the way they used the cello to bring out the tenor tones in your emotions.
it provokes an emotion u’d wish u’d never have to go thru.
and to weave the cello with the violin and the harmonica was to introduce the feelings of regret, regret that comes in waves, and the memories of how things were and how things could have been.
so absolutely perfect.
makes u want to sit by the window, stare out to sea, reliving all the lost memories of yester-years

a must watch.
really.
its not like the holiday, nor is it like pride and prejudice.
its like a mix between the red violin and the notebook.
but i might be wrong.
no matter, its still a really good movie.

… and thinking… and thinking… and thinking…. and thinking……..

ok ok,
for those of u who knows me well, u’re probably already snickering and itching to ask “since when do u not think so much?!”

but any how,
i’ve been thinking about my future.
and what i want to achieve and what my goals are for the next couple of years spanning till i’m at least 35.
and the thing about determining your future, or what u really want out of life, is to come to terms with yourself.
u’ve got to look inside u to see ahead of u, if this makes any sense at all.
but what i mean is that, u’ll have to start from scratch.
digging deep to find out what u can do and what u cannot do.
(pinjam rosli’s questions)
what u like to do and what u dont like to do.
what u want to do and what u dont want to do.

u may think that these questions are just simple questions.
and u’re right.
these are very simple questions.
but how easy can you answer these questions?
not very easily.

well, to some, these questions are very easy.
they can answer them any time any where.
and yes, these questions can be answered at any given time.
but when it comes down to true honesty in the answers, it takes some time.
to dig deep into your heart and mind and to come up with 100% honest answers is a pretty darn hard thing to do!
this would mean hours of sitting there, being true to yourself and to your conscience.
this would mean facing your fears and your flaws.
and not only are u forced to face your fears and your flaws, u are to come to terms with them and to accept that u just cannot do and be everything.
this may disappoint u for a while but hey, we’re all humans, we cannot be superman.
thou i sometimes wish i could be. sigh~

and honestly, even thou i’ve been thinking quite a fair bit, i still havent been able to sort myself out.
and its getting to my nerves.
cos i like things to have quick results.
yes yes i know i’m impatient.
and stubborn.
and i’ve got to change certain parts of it.
but oh well, i still need to sort myself out.
and its taking a bit too long for my liking but i doubt i can really rush it.
i dont want to end up doing something that i’ll end up regretting for life.
i’ve had enough regrets so far and i’m not even half way into my young adult life yet.
but i guess these things shaped me.

so now, future future.
think think think.

kekeke

gosh~
anyone near me will absolutely die if i get my way and blast my playlist on my speakers all day long

know why?
it only has a few songs
and its repeating and repeating and repeating..
over and over and over again..
like a broken record

1. T-Pain feat. akon - bartender
2. Flo Rida feat. T-Pain – get low
3. Soulja Boy – crank dat
4. J Holiday – bed
5. Christ Brown feat. T-Pain – kiss kiss
6. Craig David feat. 50 Cent – hot stuff
7. Rihanna – please dont stop the music

i’m random and odd~

i finally got my very own camera!
no more pinjaming from friends, no more waiting for pictures to be sent to me!
WHHOOOOOOOPPPPPPIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE……..~!

hehehe

hence, with the new camera, some cam whoring..

testing the features

i know i’m damn random and i’m a sucky photographer
but randomness is me
and i suck at just bout everything

of course i’ve never been a fan of the ever overrated valentine’s day
and i set out today like any other day
plans were to catch ‘jumper’ but the tix were selling like hot cakes
(i never thought couples would wanna watch violent movies on v day)

but anyhow, when i got to mv i bumped into sherri!
SHERRI! haha..
and i actually thought of her a few times over the past couple of months
and i havent seen her for more than a year!
and to see her there all of a sudden, out of no where!
it was really the most pleasant surprise i’ve had in ages!
she was there with her friend elisa and they were planning to catch a movie too
so after they got their tix, we all went to hunt for some food as me and sherri were starving!
oh yan was with us as well.. hehe
but anyhow, mv was pretty much empty save the cinema and the higher class restaurants.
all the fast food joints were pretty much near empty!
not bad man, malaysian males have a bit of class as well.. hahahahahaha
in the end we settled for kim gary seeing as it was not packed for once!

anyhow, meeting her after such a long time, especially at mv of all places made this year’s valentine’s to be the best so far
and catching up with her and then reminising the good old times really did us both some good!
but sherri dear, YOU ARE WAY TOO SKINNY!
this girl never changed man!
still cannot finish her food
and she’ll share off half her food to every one else just so her plate looks more empty!
ahahahahaha… she and her antics..
sigh~ a walk down memory lane

SHIT!!!!!!!!!
I FORGOT TO TAKE PICTURES WITH HER!!!!!
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr……
damnit damnit damnit~

went to halo cafe at OUG a little while later.
met up with catherine and ailee
cat was a little upset bout it being valentines and her being dateless
so went there to meet up with her
try to cheer her up a little
thank goodness alvin decided to come along
cos he definitely lighten up the mood
cos ailee recognized him
she was an extra in a series that alvin was acting in about 4 years ago
what a small world huh
we set there talking till 3am..
was nice thou
and i got to practice my most karat mandarine hahahahaha

the many fucking annoying balloons at halo cafe… grrr

catherine and her balloon

ailee and hers

damn annoying man these balloons

looks like an apek right?!

ah well, all in all a pretty good day

hopefully next year’s valentine’s holds more surprises!

whoever said that being single would make valentine’s day a living hell?