there are a lot of things that i’ll be blogging about soon..

but since this is the last day of the year, i’d like to take this time to wish u all a very blessed new year..
hopefully this year has been a very successful or fruitful year

anyhow, have a good night of celebration and happy welcoming the new year!

hugs..
love u all heaps in unspeakable emotions

goodbye 2007

been eating so damn much these few days..
the christmas week has proven me a pig
eat and eat and eat and eat and eat
thats all i did
or rather, that was almost everything i did when i went back
hahahahaha…
shy only…

and now i’ve got to live with the consequences.
i’ve put on weight
my thighs are bigger my jeans are tight now
my loose jeans are fitting now
argh~!

but the best part of it all is that i’ve gotten a nicer cleavage
ahahahahahaha…
yes yes i knnow i’m vain..
cant help it thou..
chinese girls from back in the days barely had cleavage
and so i’m trying to break out of it..
yes yes laugh all u want… hahaha..
i’m feeling it…

hehe… this year’s christmas wasnt the best…
could be called kissm’ass (kiss-my-ass or chinafied way of pronouncing chlissmass)
but heck… i’m having fun now at charles’s house

today my mom said i am a disgrace to her and to the family..

and all i did was wear something that was a bit too low cut for her..
and what was i wearing? a white top that covered EVERYTHING!
it was long enough to cover the whole torso and had sleeves and was pretty high collored
but it was still too low for mom…
sigh~ and i took extra care for that…

seriously, if the ppl from CLC are going to be such hypocrites, they can go fuck themselves for all i care..
i really do not care what other ppl think and my relationship with any God is personal…
its between me and him..
so what does other ppl think have anything to do with that?
how am i a disgrace?

aih whatever la..
this year’s christmas is stupid…
and i do not wish to talk more bout it…

anyhow, i hope the rest of u had a very fun christmas!

christmas is still the best time of the year no matter what anyone says about it!

oh and kissmass is my creation..!
ahahaha… me is so the selfish..
its my copyright!

anyhow, there is half an hour more to the very special 25th dec..
to all my friends, i’m really sorry i suck at keeping in touch..
but that does not mean that i do not think bout u or wish that i could hang out with u guys more often.
but i guess sometimes when i’m too busy, i tend to forget
i cannot multitask…
its a huge weakness of mine..
but know that i do love u, i do cherish u, and that u guys mean a whole lot to me
and nothing in the world can take the friendship away
so i’m sincerely wishing all of u a very merry berry kissmass and a wholey new ear!

(yes i know i sound like a nut)

i’m going home.. to the place where i belong…….

actually thats barely the case… haha
but yea… i’m suppose to be packed and half way on my journey already but was too tired cos was cleaning the room till the wee hours of this morning..
so i slept in…

sigh… need to get my arse off this chair and get going soon…
there are so many things that i wanna blog bout aaaaaa….
need to find some time when i get back or something..
cos the computer back in perak is crap’s ass..
hmmm.. maybe i’ll bring some pictures back to edit
we’ll see how..

goodbye kl and have a blessed christmas!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

since i’ve got a little bit of time to myself now, i’ve decided to take 15 mins off to blog..

havent been able to digest things for a while now cos i’m mentally exhausted
all the shoots, the dramas, the practices….
a bit too much to take all at once

and since its the end of the year, and my room is super duper messy, i’ve decided to ’spring clean’ it..
i tell u, if u were to see my room, it looks ten times worse than an average guy’s room wei…
so the memalufying.. tsk tsk tsk..

anyhow, i think i’ve gotta really start looking for a place to move out to..
really need my own room cos i’ve got so many books and mags that i need more space and bigger book shelves to home them all
fingers crossed that i’ll get a nice place to move out to..
great stratigic location, convenient, cosy..
and of course good housemates to share the place with as well..
wouldnt wanna end up staying with a psycho right

hmmm… anyone looking to move out? heh

i’m cleaning out my closet
and ushering in the new year
to fill my closet with more new crap
to make the new year worth while

ok… i’m blabbering already… haha
all the nonsense in the world..

wait.. i’m suppose to be cleaning my room

ok i shall stop now

was lagging a bit so decided to split it

ok the next set of picture were taken the next morning before elimination shoot
and i think the 5 pictures really depict all of us as we are
look closely and u’ll see what i mean

claudine sassy and cute

me usual laaa…

hmmm…. can u see it?

puppy dog eyes

sensual hot mama!

during elimination

damn cute right?

spot the monkey in the tree!!!

tsk tsk tsk

laura the hot hottie soul sister

i kickass!

on the way to boot camp

trying to capture an ass

before boot camp started

my partner in crime

acting cute

try me!

whoopie!

choy

the gang

riding into the jungle

my obsession with sign boards

belly stud came off cos i gatal nak climb the wall

still can laugh in pain

the gay guys in the pool…
“u’ve got the love pass.. u got the love pass..”

ahem ahem~

yan

ouch~

hahahahaha….

on the way back

tarrot time

ace the nice loud guy

allan the chef

raj the mature one

vincent the blushing boy

voon.. rocker sial

siva the down-to-earth one

he can really sing!!!

‘her’ villa

time to say goodbye

well… if u’ve watched this epi, these pictures will make more sense
the pictures that i’m putting up are from sat night all thru monday

after being together for shoots during our weekends, we started to get to know each other better..
and since may is my roommate, i got to know her even better
she’s a smart and bubbly person
tall and pretty as well…
u can talk to her bout anything and she’ll listen and join in
and she’s got the thickest lips i’ve ever seen on a chinese girl!
nice wei… makes ppl wanna just bite it hehe

yeah…
the nonsense all of us have to put up with…
sigh~

siva has got to be the nicest most down to earth person u’ll ever meet
now girls, if u see him on the streets or in the malls, please just stop and say hi
he’s the sweetest thing alive!
now when i got cut, he really took care of me
him, ace and vincent.
they went out of their way to take care of me
made sure i was comfortable
brought me food… water… ice cream……….

ace as well..
gave me a foot massage
tucked me in and made me feel comfortable (thou he was tickling my feet nonstop)
he was a very nice partner to have
and of course if u’re out with him, there is barely a dull moment
he’ll make u laugh, make u feel comfortable
and he’ll give u his riddles and hints la..
makes u crack your head thinking
and he’s always trying to con me
but he was nice enough to teman me to the hospital to get my jab

adrian… never really got to know him thou
he was pretty quiet most the time
but maybe in the future

siva trying to show off his body hehe

and again..

i think he has something for carrying girls..
probably thinking of marriage already
(carrying bride into house…)

being silly

allan trying to impress us

the girls

this is one girl u should never mess with!
shanna is tough! and i bet u she can kick your ass to kingdom come!
and boy can she cook…
mmmhh hmmmmmmm…
damn her cooking is good..
loved the corn and mushroom
this girl is complex.. and u’ve got to take the time to get to know her
and let me tell u this,
do not judge a person by their outward appearance
everyone is different, everyone is unique
and just because u cannot accept certain things does not mean that it is wrong or bad
its just different

dont mess with us, yo~

heh….. how much more silly can we get
hahahahahahaha

damn cute kan hehe

voon…
damn this boy can sing!
his voice is huge!
its deep and loud…
very uncanny for a chinese u know
and the fact that he sings radiohead and stp and everything else is such a bonus
i’ll post up schedules of his upcoming performances
please try to catch at least one of it
its very worth it
trust me on this one

these two always take good pictures… together

this vincent is such a blush head.. hahaha
dont let his hiphop gangster talk fool u, yo
ahahahaha… he’s actually a very shy, polite, ambitious and caring young man
and he can also be serious when need be
when i was hurt, he brought me his sweater when i said i was feeling cold..
sprayed some perfume on it cos i said i loved the scent
oh and btw, he’s holding his mouth cos some dumbass robbers stole his phone and punched him
those mo-fos needs a teaching

kesian sial… kena stitches

raj… he’s the quiet mature one
we barely spoke thou till, well, the coming epi..
but i find him to be wise and experienced
and i guess being the eldest there, its safe to say that he’s seen more of life than the lot of us
and i enjoy talking to him cos he is always reasonable and rational
its always good to have a level headed person around

getting ready for the ‘pajama photoshoot’

claudine is super cute and sassy!
if u think she’s quiet and boring
u’re WRONG!
do not let her size fool u
when she lets out her wild inner child, u’ll be blown away!
this girl can dance man!
and this lil chilli padi sure as hell can speak her mind!
love how she’s always straightforward and never pretentious

yi wen…
got to talk to her during our shoot for the first epi
found out that she loves the cello and performs it as well
oh and she sings
this girl has so much more than meets the eye
sadly she’s the crew member thou
would have been interesting if she is a contestant as well
she’ll be having a cello performance in singapore soon
and i shall update u guys on that when i get more details

yan… she’s the script writer of the show
and i tell u, its damn freaky when i first met her
cos we found out that we had the same phone and the same watch
and that we dress alike.. hahahaha
oh and did i mention that we both support manchester united as well?
dang~

this girl i tell u…..
cant say much bout her..
refrain

siva’s symptoms was passed on to vincent

the next few pictures are of us girls during the unofficial pajama photo shoot

weeeeeeeeeeeeeee….~

all of us with nicolekiss
she’s our official blogger

hahaha

i really like these pictures..
makes me look not so chinafied hehehe

after the shoot we decided to go down to the guy’s villa

allan impressing the girls with his photos

the butts

how not to love her?! so cute~

strong women unite!

ghost

experiment

it works!

and of course all my vainpot camwhore pictures

yup i know i’m vain

haha

erh…  yeah…. camera trick
hehe

emily!
super nice, super hardworking
and we super take advantage of her as well
so sorrry la dear…
u know we love u to bits right?
like our big sister
waking us up, shoo-ing us to do makeup and shower and get ready and get our asses out the door
love her la
hugs~

hahaha~

we were being silly with the cubes
and than we got shoo-ed to go upstairs
but we managed to squeeze in one last picture

and than we went up to continue camwhoring

i love the colour sceme of the house

last picture with yan before she went off to the mamak to watch manchester match

oh  hahahaha…
me and claudine got dragged out to retrieve something for the boys
and siva came over after talking on the phone
and handed us the flowers
nice kan?

to be continued…

hahahahahaha…
i’m sorry i just had to laugh first…
ahahahahahahahahaha….

u know, i was just sitting down thinking the whole of last night
and i actually had the whole of yesterday to think
(went for 3 movies in 9 hours)
and i was reasoning with myself on how things are and how things are going to be

i realised that i’ve made the too fast and too slow mistake!
ok, i know i’ve been really vague on what this is going to be about
and let me tell u this..
as a lot of ppl probably know, i’m more guy than girl…
personality wise of course
and so i do not really know how to act when it comes to the matters of the heart
because i tend to think with my brains not my heart
and this is how i’ve made the two mistakes that ppl shouldnt get themselves into

u see, i’ve been too fast and pushy when it comes to relationships before..
and that was the first two times (one never started, one started and failed)
both are seperate events
one was that i really loved him and he was not ready but yet i made the mistake of pushing for something
and the second was that i rushed into something that i wasnt ready to deal with
and those were my ’too fast’ mistakes

and what i was feeling down about these past few days was cos i made the mistake of being too slow!
hahahahahaha…
u see, having gone thru the ’too fast’ period and mistakes, it has taught me to slow down
but i guess i was, again, stupid in the sense that i did not stop to see and think about the situation that i had in hand
and this time this required me to move a little faster than how i was
and so, the mistake was made
i lost out..
so there, i’ve learnt the 2 mistakes when in comes to pursueing a relationship

i can laugh bout it right now cos i’ve bashed myself into reason
it took some time but at least its getting shorter as it comes
and i figure, well, no point looking back and wondering what could have been
if its not meant to be, its not meant to be
to hell with it and start moving on with life man!

it does hurt when u lose out
or that u have to back off
or that there is someone else in the other person’s life

but hey, look at it this way
there is more to life than that
and being a sulky ass aint gonna do much help
its only going to bring u down
and make everything and everyone else around u feel depressed or down
so why burden the ppl that u love who are around u?

thou i believe that sometimes everyone needs a moment to whallow in our sorrows
we’re only humans
and i’m sorry i was down the past few days
that it seemed as thou the life and spirit in me was sucked out
but i’m getting over it
and thank u for being there..
u know who u are

and to those who are caught in either of the situations,
please just stop.
stop and think.
look at things in the big picture
dont just focus and dwell on the things that are in front of u
believe it or not, there is more to life than that.

argh~!
i love this odd little thing called life!

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You’re barely waking
And I’m tangled up in you
Yeah

I’m open, you’re closed
Where I follow, you’ll go
I worry I won’t see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I’m quiet you know
You make a first impression
I’ve found I’m scared to know I’m always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

.. is how i feel right now
i do not want to care about anything that is going on.
that i want a time of unreasonability and irrational decisions

i feel like i do not want to put things into words
and that i want to put everything on a hold and say ‘fuck the world, leave me be’
i really cannot be bothered with things right now
my thoughts are all on hold

i just want out

… was a pretty interesting affair

and of course we were all in anticipation of the villa..
we were told to wait at cimb outside country heights cos our cars cannot enter
and the houses there were HUGE!
they had nice vast land to frolic around..
cars so berlambak that it overflows to outside..
these ppl really know how to live in luxury

so u can imagine just how excited we were when we saw those houses.
we thought we’d get to stay in one as nice as that

but no…
ours is a small Israel-jesus’s-time like apartment.
its pretty cosy i must admit
and for me, even though i want to own my own big house one day (with my own hard earned money, mind u)
for now, a small apartment thats cosy and warm is a more inviting idea

the only thing thats not ideal about the place is that the walls are pretty thin
so whatever soft noise that we make in the apartment can be heard next door!
so naturally, when u put such noisy bunch together, we get a whole crap shit load of complains as well!
whoopie!
very the normal..
i kinda think it’ll be odd if there aint complains.
would mean that we’re a dead boring bunch.
besides, me one person can probably wake the whole neighbourhood!
bluek~

anyhow, these are some of the pictures that we took on the first night :)

with shanna on ‘the shanna pillow’
doesnt that zebra stripped huge ass pillow look like something shanna would own? hahaha

see! she’s so comfortable that she’s dozing off ddi!

me vain pot and me love the pillows!

the next day we were at one utama to shoot a promo vid for celebrity fitness
and while waiting for the guys to finish their shoot, we went to delicious for some darn tasty deserts!!

with aliza…
notice that her dress matches the pillows behind her!
nice huh!

the very photogenic may..
goodness knows when she’ll ever take a not so satisfactory picture!

the five of us..
they called us the spice girls
uh huh~

the next few pictures were cam whore pictures taken after our party shoot
we were all tired and sleepy
but we managed to squeeze a few pictures in :)

the oh so sweeeeeeeet claudine!
my partner in swooning over VROOMS!
mwahahahahahaha
cannot help it if we ABSOLUTELY ADORE super bikes ;)
swoon swoon~

emily!
she’s so darn cute..
and so kesian her cos she’s gotta shepard us here and there and everywhere
and wake us up
and make us go to bed
and take care of us
like our very own mom
hehehe
mwah!

me love ‘em pillow..
so nice kan? hehe

nice kan?
cosy giler babi!

with the flowers raj gave us..
mine has a teddy cos i’m the baby!
hehehe

me love ball like objects

the lot..

more pictures from the 3rd epi next week k?

… from the shoot

i cannot reveal anything that happened during the shoot so u’ve got to watch it for yourself next week and than i’ll fill u in on the ‘behind-the-scenes’ next week..

however, what i can tell u is that
I GOT CUT BY BARB WIRES!
here is proof!

that hurts like nobody’s business man!!

just applied some medication on it right now..
its still stings and i dont know how i’m gonna sleep cos me so smart-ass didnt get bandage at all…
(stupid, stupid)

apart from that, i’m still coughing
and my ribs hurt from all the coughing.
havent had these symtoms for ages!

oh and did i mention, i got a jab?
had to bargain with the doctor to get it on my arm rather than on my ass!
thank goodness he was a nice doctor…
so now my left arm hurts as well

this is SO NOT FUNNY!

and as the rest of the ppl from the crew, production and cast have already heard,
i feel like i’m pregnant from behind..
hahahahaha
cos i cannot move much.
feel like some handicap person

lost all my balls when i went to the doctor’s.
so memalufying!
ish..

anyhow, since i cannot reveal any more stories,
just tune in next saturday at 9:45pm NTV7
and do vote for the person u want to see win the competition!
cos the votes do count!

cheerio~

cough cough

ouch~!

been coughing and having sore throat for a couple of days now..
and with that came the sexy husky voice..
i love that voice…
ahahahahahaha…
wish i can keep my voice that way
would be rather interesting compared to my normal very chinese voice

anyhow, i’ve been to a launch and an event or two and will be blogging bout it soon..
hopefully i get to do it before going for my ‘loooooong weekend’

looking forward to this coming weekend’s shoot..
i’m predicting it to be an exciting episode! hahahaha
and the next would be even more interesting..
since they are complaning that we’re a whole lot of boring ppl (only cos there aint any sparks/drama flying around yet)
us contestants are gonna spice things up!
ahahaha… i’m going to be armed with a camera this time round..
thanks to adrian a.k.a. dinosour who lent me his camera
THANK U!

aaaaaaaa
looking forward to blogging bout the events